vagti adam az dast yeki shakiye, mire bikhe kheresho migire behesh mige... mire migiratesh be kotak... ye jori behesh mifahmone ke karesh eshtebah bude...
vaghti az donya shaki bashi..., vaghti az chizi be esme KHODA shaki bashi chi kar mikoni...?! mire yaghasho migiri dad saresh mizani...?! miri migirish be baade kotak...?! miri behesh migi CHERA...?! behesh migi mage chi kar karde bud...?! mituni behesh migi khoda nashnas...?! chi behehs migi...?! che joori behesh migi...?! koja peydash mikoni ke behesh begi...?!






akharin bar shayad chandin sal ghabl bud, shayad 10 12 sale pish bud ke be khatere marge kesi geryam nagerefte bud...





sabr...
faghat hamino mitunam arezoo konam...

mira

az tarafe digar doost nadaram ke be man dast bezanand. va in neshaneye besyar khatarnakist. digaran bazooye ham ra migirand ya daste ham ra mifesharand, shane be shane ye ham rah miravand, makhsoosan vaghti taze be ham miresand. man nemitavanam. dar in mored dastkhoshe noyi parishani shode am ke bimariam ra be khoobi ashkar mikonad. barayam ettefagh oftade ast ke fek mikonam ba labkhand zadan be kasi oo ra entekhab karde am. oo ra joda karde am, khaste am ke faghat oo shahede mohabbate man bashad. farde salem be hame labkhand mizanad. dar dasht aghlab rah haye khalvat tar ra entekhab mikonam, rah haye kam sar o seda tar ra. farde salem dar jost o jooye sar o seda va taharrok ast. vaghti be komake kasi miravam ke dar vaze zaeef tari gharar gerefte ast. fard e salem hamishe be aksariat mipeyvandad. baraye inke be kasi komak konam, kafi nist ke faghat mohtaje komak bashad, balke bayad man ham bekhaham ke be oo komak konam.

vaghti namayande ye komiteye ehsan baraye bardashte pooli ke har rooz bayad dar jabeye ehsan e nazdike dare khane begozarim miayad, bayad negaham ra bargardanam ta estefragh nakonam. bazi oghat ba khoorooje kargaran az karkhane rooberoo misham. mibinam ke hamegi daste jami biroon miayand, mesle kermi garm va moteharrek. roasa va daneshmandan ham hamrahe kargaran az karkhane biroon miayand. in hokme ghanoon ast. bana be mogharrarat anha ham uniform be tan mikonand, vali mishavad az digaran tashkhiseshan dad. garche sareshan ra payin miandazand va moohayeshan ra be tarafe bala shane karde and va roghan zade and,vali anha ra az haman negahe aval mishavad shenakht. in ra midanand va az in mozoo khejalat mikeshand. say mikonand ke ba kargaran shookhi konand, ba anha sharab minooshand, amma faghat khodeshan be shookhihayeshan mikhandand va sharabe oomoomi ra ham doost nadarand. vaghti anha ra mibinam ehsase ghami bozorg dar eyne hal shadiyi bozorg mikonam.

inha neshaneye bimarie man hastand. amma dalile anha ra bayad dar zaman haye gozashte jost o joo kard, va in ra movarrekhan nemitavanand tozih dahand. zira hameye movarrekhan eslah shode and va hich chiz ra be yad nadarand.


Mortelle
Frank Christopher

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ba arze mazerat khahi az hame! 2 rooze asabamo rikhte beham. tu weblog miam, hata post ha mitunam bezaram, vali comment nemitunam bezaram!!! bana bar in in ja commentamo vase LohrasP va Saleh mizaram!



1. LohrasP to ke baladi be dokhtara berini! berin behesh ta dast az saret bar dare! ya inke kolan divertesh kon bazar vase khodesh paaroo bezane!




2. "bebin!! joone madaret nazen!!!"yadete in jomlaro Saleh...?!avalin jomle'i ke be man gofti...un roozi ke umade budid allame 2; tu football behem gofti...

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Jean-Marc baraye avardane botrie nooshidani va do livan az barkhast. Angah, pas az nooshidane joreyi, goft : “dar payane ayadatam dar bimarestan, oo shooroo be tarife khaterat kard.oo anche ra ke, gooya dar zaman e shanzdah salegi gofte boodam, be yadam avard.dar an lahze, be yegane mafhoome doosti, an goon eke emrooz be an amal mishavad, pey bordam. Ensan, baraye anke hafeze ash khoob kar konad, be doosti niaz darad. Gozashte ra be yad avardan, an ra hamishe ba khod dashtan, shayad sharte lazem baraye hefze an chizist k eke tamamiat e man e adami namide mishavad. Baraye anke man koochak nagardad, baraye anke hajmash hefz shaved, bayad khaterat ra, hamchon golhaye daroone goldan, abyari kard, va in mostalzem e tamas e monazam ba shahedan e gozashte, yani doostan, ast. Anan ayene ye ma hastand; az anan hich chiz khaste nemishavd, magar inke gah be gah in ayene ra bargh biandazand ta betavanim khod ra dar an bebinim. Ama man koochek tarin ahamiati baraye anche dar madrese mikardam ghael nistam! Anche man hamvare, az evan e javani, shayad az zaman e koodakiam, arezoo kardeam kamelan chiz e digari boode ast : DOOSTI BAYAD ARZESHI VALATAR AZ HAMEYE ARZESH HA YE DIGAR BASHAD. Doost dashtam begooyam : MIAN E HAGHIGHAT VA DOOST MAN HAMISHE DOOST RA BAR MIGOZINAM. Rast ast ke an ra baraye bar angikhtane digaran be zaban miavardam, ama be tore jeddi be an miandishidam. Midanam in ghaede emrooz mahjoor shod east. in ghaede mitavanesr baraye ashil, dooste patrocle, baraye tofangdaran e Alexander dooma, hatta baraye sancho ke, be raghme hameye ekhtelaf nazar hayash, doosti e haghighi e arbabash bood, arzeshmand bashad. Ama in ghaede digar baraye ma arzeshmand nist. Dar bad bini am anghadr pish miravam ke hazeram emrooz haghighat ra be doosti tarjih daham.”

Hoviat
Milan Kundera

Ghalamam mikeshid roo kaghaz khat, vali natoonest bede oono be negaat rabt.

Ey vaay bar man, yeki ye mana' be zendegie man bede... khaste shodam az inke kootah tarin hadafam ro hoodoodan 3-4 saal dige miresam behesh...

lol k ehanooz saghar dast az sare man barnemidare. koodoom yeki az doostaye saghar daneshgahe esfahan raftan? emrooz az sarvin shenidam ke yeki az farzanegaaniaa ke doostaye saghare too daneshgaahe esfahan be yeki az doostaye sarvin rajebe man bad gofte !!! ehtemale inke sohbate man beshe oonja cheghadre? :)) =)) badesham khoshhansie maa modam poshtemoon harf mizanan o rajebam bad migan! hadeaghal nemigan masalan baba lohrasp che adame bahali bood dige iran nist, migan ajab adame gohie lohrasp :)) n to think i left all these things behind and moved to canada to not worry about this bullshit.

54 daghigheye dige kelase liniar algebra daaram, va aslan hosele nadaram ke beram sare kelas... age naram ham ye chapter az dars aghab mioftam... enghadr ke in koskeshaa tond dars midan...

hanooz nobate neveshtane shomaha nashode? chand taa poste dige mikhain man benevisam?

Heh, midooni, maa joftemoon midoonim ke alan shabe o maah poshte abraast. Joftemoon midoonim ke roozaamoon hamash baroonie o mesle ine ke khorshid poshte koohaa be daam oftade. Vali hich koodoomemoon nemitoonim omid ro az dast bedim, chon tanha chiziye ke alan darim o bayad baa chango dandoon behehs bechasbim. are, joftemoon baa dard kharashide shodim, man baa dard shekl gereftamo tarashide shodam. age gharar bood be in zoodiya dast bardaram o saramo bendazam paayin o ashk berizam, hich vaght be jaayi ke alan hastam nemiresidam. Pas tanhaa chizi ke man mitoonam begam ine ke give me your best shot the shit show we call life.

Calgary balakhare dare garm mishe. Hoodoodan 20 o khoordeyi daraje bood emrooz. alan too ootooboos neshestam daram bermigardam be edmonton.

Fagaht ye chiz ro hich vaght nabayad faramoosh konim hich koodoomemoon. Cheshmaat ro rooye hadaf ghofl kon. Miri paayin, miyaay balaa, doost midary o motenafer mishi. Khejalat mikeshi o porroo, behet tohmat zade mishe o be baghiye tohamt mizani, vali hich vaght nabayad faramoosh koni ke chi mikhaay o koja mikhaay bery. Mohem nistesh ke cheghad sakht bashe o cheghad dardnaak bashe. Akharesh ine ke zire aabee yakh mishini va aabe shir vasat garmtarin va shoghavartarin hadiyeye 2nyaa mishe. Faghat be in fekr nakon ke che chizaaayi baes shod ke ashk berizi o beshakni, labkhandhaa o parvaanehaaye tooye delet ro be khodet yaadavary kon.

Heh, midooni, maa joftemoon midoonim ke injaa shabe o maah poshte abraast... vali dasteto bede be man o bebin ke cheghadr energy hanooz toom baghi moonde. Kheyli raahe deraazi ro dar pishe roo darim ke shoone be shoone bayad baa ham ghadam bezanim. be tak take harfaam etminan dashte baash. be tak takeshoon.

Khob bashe age shomahaa neminevisin, man minevisam.

Balakahre oomadam edmonton. Inja daram baa 2 ta 2khtar o ye pesare dige zendegi mikonam. Otagham hamchin ziyad bozorg nist, vali khob be andazeye kaafi bozorg hastesh ke 2taa komod dare o miz o takhtekhaab o yedoone mobl toosh jaa mishe. Kelaasaam ham az farda shooroo mishe. gharare inja man 2 maah bemoonam taa akhare terme bahar, badesh 2bare miram calgary ke ye khorde dige kaar konam o pool darbiyaram o khoshbegzaroonam baa doostan.

Az ye 2khtare 21 sale khosham miad! khob mioomad, badesh kollan hamechiz be ham khord. na ke ziyad mozooye mohemi bashe, chon ke too in 2 sal fekr konam ke baa 5-6 taa 2khtar biroon raftam, bad hame chiz be ham khorde sare mozoohaaye mokhtalef. Vali khob hadeaghal ye yehafte intoraa rajebe harkoodoom fekr kardam bad az inke beham khorde. Vali khob, inyeki ham akharish naboos, avalish ham nakhaad bood. Vali khob in 2khtare az hame bishtar behem shabih boode. Baaziye computeri, Jokaaye modele hamdige, va inke khob, ba ham rahat boodim. Man hata nemidoonam ke alan oon fekr mikone ke be hamkhorde ya na, vali dige vase man be ham khord. hata age oon bekhad ke be ham ham nakhore, dige az tarafe man hichgoone supporty nakhad dasht. heh... ey baba, eybaba... avalish nabood, akharish ham nakhaad bood.

Ajib gharib tarin kelaasaaye momken ro daram... az saate 10:30 taa 3, bad az saate 7 taa 8:25... yani begoo sob saate 9 bidar sho, boro daneshgah, saate 9 ham bargard... hade aghal mitoonam beram bodoam/vazne bezenam oon 3-4 saate oon vasat ro. ya khoda ro che didi, shayad yeho vaghan shooroo konam DARS BEKHOONAM! [ saghfo begir alan mirize ]

Fekr konam ke in neveshtaro neveshtam chon ke delam vase farsi sohbat kardan tang shode bood o mikhastam be khodam sabet konam ke hanoozam ke hanooze mitoonam khoob farsi sohbat konam/benevisam.

midooni jalebtarin ghesmatesh chiye? hanooz natoonestam doosti injaa peyda konam ke hata masalan ehtemale ino bedam ke be khoobiye doostaye iranam khahad shod. heh... maskharas...

ashegh shodam mifahmi...?
be khoda nemifahmi!!

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Saleh man ziad halo hoseleye nebeshtan nadaram; makhsoosan ke bekham az halo ozaye khodam benebisam. be nazaram montazere man nashid. to khodet 2i. shoro kon nebeshetan. faghat hamino begam ke aslan khob nistam...

midooni... bazi az maa haa kheili khob yaad gereftim ke bazi chiza ro neshon nadim... baziamon kheili khoob yad gereftim ke hame jaa narizim biroon...

nemidooni chand vaghte ke ye neveshteye chand safheyi tooye daftare riazim daram ke mikham inja benevisam vali mesle ine ke nemitoonam benevisam inja! aval az hame inke inghad adat kardam ke baste basham ke harf zadan kheyli sakht shode! badesham inke bad az inke oono tooye daftaram neveshtam, mesle in bood ke dige sohbatamo kardam o dige ehtiaji nadaram ke chizi benevisam jayi o baa kasi harf bezanam! poooouuuffff... faghat mitoonam begam ke delam vase hame oonja tang shode... khahesh mikonam ke ye chizi rajebe kaarayi ke mikonin vasam benevisin! sina dary chikar mikoni to balakhare? ye chizaayi rajebe sanaz o saleh midoonam! mahan chi? aydin chi? soheil?

bebinam aslan dige kasi injaro check mikone?