Friday, April 28, 2006

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Monday, April 24, 2006

what i thought was a dream,
was as real as it seemed...
heh

happy birthday...
make a wish...

its a real shame that i always shave my head...

the answer is no
i dont have cancer...
u were about to ask me this today... right?!
heh...

its your choice...
peace or annihilation.

kill the man, become the monster...
will u please?!

people = shit
have second doubts about it


You scored as Paganism.
Your beliefs are most closely aligned with those of paganism, Wicca, or a similar earth-based religion. You may also follow a Native American religion.

Paganism
83%
Satanism
75%
Buddhism
67%
atheism
63%
Islam
33%
Christianity
33%
agnosticism
25%
Judaism
17%
Hinduism
8%

Paganism is the broad term used to describe any religion or belief that is not Christian, Jewish or Muslim. Paganism can be traced back to Neolithic times and survived up until the middle ages when Christianity became powerful enough to erase it from existence. Paganism is an earth based religion which lays emphasis on the worship of all aspects of nature. Paganism appeared very early on in the history of the world. Examples of early paganism, can be seen in ancient Greek and Roman religions, as well as in ancient Goddess worship and Druidic religions.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

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-نمی دانم پس از مرگم چه خواهد شد...
نمی خواهم بدانم کوزه گراز خاک اندامم چه خواهد ساخت...
ولی آن قدر مشتاقم که از خاک گلویم سوتکی سازد...
گلویم سوتکی باشد
به دست کودکی گستاخ و بازیگوش...
و او یکروز و پی در پی
دم گرم گلویش را
در گلویم سخت بفشارد
و خواب مردگان خفته را آشفته سازدبدین سان بشکند دائم سکوت مرگبارم را!

(دکترشریعتی)

-پروردگارا!
تو را سپاس می گویم، به خاطر دوستانی که برایم قرار دادی
تو را سپاس می گویم برای جانی که برایم کم ارزش قرار دادی
نه جانم کم ارزش نیست،جانم در برابر دوستانم کم ارزش است
چرا کم ارزش؟بی ارزش است.
خدایا تو را سپاس می گویم برای شعوری که دادی
برای فهمی که دادی
تو را سپاس می گویم که برایم غرور قراردادی روز افزون
که سپاس گویمت
و نیز تو را شکر گذارم که برایم خشوع قرار دادی که حرف هایم را بزنم.

آری خدا،
شیخ اجل،
همان بنده ی حافظت
در شعر، به خوبی از تو تشکر کرده
"هواداران کویش را چو جان خویشتن دارم"
پایم را فراتر می گذارم:
جانم فدای یاران...
جانم فدای جانان.

ای خدا،
نمی خواهم گله کنم که جای گله کردن نگذاشتی
می خواهم دوستت بدارم آن چنان که لیاقتش را دارم.
خدایا، خداوندا، تو را دوست می دارم چون شعورم را
فهمم را
قدری گذاشتی که کسی برایم حرف نزند
و تو را دوست تر می دارم که قدر شعور و فهمم را فهماندی.

پروردگارم،
تو را دوست دارم چون مرا آن دادی که آن به،
و تو را می خوانمت که مرا آن دهی که آن به،
پس می گویمت: مرا آن ده که آن به.

دوستت دارم چون تا یک قدم اشتباه بر می دارم،می فهمانیم.
دوستت دارم چون سینا را دوست دارم،
دوستت دارم چون لهراسپ را دوست دارم،
دوستت دارم چون آیدین را دوست دارم،
دوستت دارم چون ساناز و پگاه را دوست دارم،

دوستت دارم چون دوست داشتن را تو نشان دادی،

پروردگارا دوستت دارم چون وقتی دوستم ناراحت است نگران می شوم.

خدایا تو را برای اینکه سینا برایم حرف نمی زند سرزنش نمی کنم
بلکه تو را به خاطر این که برای سینا ناراحت می شوم
و تمام سعیم را می کنم که آرام شود،شکر می گویم.

خدایا مرا در آغوشت گیر
تا در آغوش گرمت
همچون آغوش گرم سینا
همچون آغوش گرم دوستان
قلبم آرام گیرد.

مرا ببخش که کاری می کنم که نهیم کردی.
دروغ می گویم که با پلیدی یکیست.
اما می دانم که تو مرا می بخشی
چون می دانی به که
و برای چه
دروغ گفتم

و در پایان
از تو می خواهم
آن چنان که بندگان صالحت خواستند
خدایا این صالح رادر میان بندگان صالحت قرار ده.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

ehem... .

Nemidoonam bayad be khodam eftekhar konam ya inke az khodam badam biad; gahi rahat mitoonam ba anjame kari, har chand naamonaseb, khodam ro mashghol konam va az daghdaghi ke mashghaleam baram dorost karde khodam ro raha konam. Vali har bar ke be kodam fekr mikonam ya khodamo tu ayiine mibinam az khodam sharmam migire. Nemidoonam chera. Nemitoonam ziad khodamo tu ayine niga konam, magar inke geryam begire. Hamin moghe hast ke yade khodam mioftam, yade tamame adamayi ke doro baraman, yade gereftarihashon, yade noe rabeti ke bahashon daram mioftam, yade bazi harfa va kara ke shayad be kheili vaght pish barmigardan, yade tamame etefaghati mioftam ke man va atrafianm ro tahte ta'sir gharar dadan, etefaghati ke shayad az biroon chizi be nazar naresan ya mashghol shodan beheshon ahmaghane bashe vali adamayi mesle man va atrafianam shayad mesle ye batlagh bashe ke biroon omadan azash sakhte, kheili sakht(va che ghadr khobe ke hamishe ye seri adam baraye biroon keshidane adam biroon az in batlagh vojod dashte bashan).
Doroste ke kheili kam pish miad ke tu in halat beram, vali chizi ke aziatam mikone ine ke baraye modate ziadi tu in halat mimonam va kheili energy az dast midam, gahi baraye hafte ha tu in halat mimonam. Bad tar az in, ine ke age bekham ke ba anjame kari, har chand bad, az oon halat biam biroon, tah mondeie energy ham ke daram ro az dast midam va tanah chizi ke az in majara biron miad ye mordast; be khatere haminam hast ke targih midam tu in halat baghi bemonam ta baraye modate bishtari betoonam sare pa bemonam.



Tu elme raftar shenasi, ye raftar shenas mire va baraye modati ye seri jandaro niga mikone va raftaraii ke az oon jandar mibine ro baresi mikone va say mikone ta barashon ye seri dalil biare va raftarashono tojih kone. Kheili pish omade ke bad az saal ha malom mishe ke folan raftar shenas tojihi ke baraye oon raftar ovorde ghalat boode va baraye oon raftar ye tojih jadid peyda mishe. Gahi etefagh miofte ke bazi az raftaraye jandaran hich tojihi nadarn va asasan donbale tojih gashtan barashon kare bi fayedeie, vali in mozo ro oon raftar shenae bad bakht nemidoone va hamin toori barash donbale tojih migade va dar akhar sar barash ye tojihe eshtebah miare. bazi az raftar ha ham hastan ke dorost bar akse in ghazie hastan, yani shayad ye raftari vojod dashte bashe ke be dorosti tojihi dashte bashan vali raftar shenas haa aslan mohem nadonanesh va donbalesh naran. Negah kardane raftar haye jandaran baram kheili jazab tar hastan ta inke behsinam va sar az dalile raftareshond ar biaram.



rasti man dobare daram tu weblogam minebisam

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

-it's too hard to let go. isn't it?
-yes. it is.
-well what can i say... . this is just what life is... .




-should i be afraid?
-a man like you? no.




-i'm worry about her.
-if i were you, i wouldn't be. these things got theire own way of working out.




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Sunday, April 16, 2006

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Delam nemikhast benevisam.yani hade aghal delam nemikhast alan ke daram dars mikhoonam benevisam.dars mikhoonam?are daram dars mikhoonam.chi mikhastam chi shod.mikhastam dars bekhoonam ke be in bahoone hade aghal havasam part bashe.ama bad tar shod.tanha etefaghi ke oftad in bood ke nazanin kheyli kam behem zang mizane.yani az sizdah bedar ke didamesh faghat ye bar zang zade ke oonam chon gooshim silent boode nafahmidam.
Bebin azize delam asabam khoorde.kheyli ham khoorde.are vasat tavalod oomadam biroon taze behem migan khob taghsire khodete mikhasti begi dirtar biam donbalet.alabte chon ma mahano nemishnasim nemizashtima vali khob mikhasti begi dirtar biaym.mikhay asabam rahat bashe?vali na khodamo khat khati nemikonam.ba oon tanab sorbie ham pamo kabood nemikonam.roo tabe yakh ham nemishinam.haminja deraz mikesham.midoonam chikar bayad bokonm.are alan daram hamoon kar ro mikonam.
Oon vare sal(yani nim saat ghabl az tahvile sal) be khodam goftam sal 85 fekramo azad mkonam .kamtar fekr mikonam.hamoon shab chon ehtemal midadam ke yeki behem zang bezane va dobare fekram mashghool beshe vase sal tahvil khabidam.sina zang zad o ba mamanm sohbat kard.mamanam fardash behem goft ke sina zang zade ama man be sina zang nazadam.gozashtam rooz 5e eyd,vaghti ardebil booda. Vaghti fekram be in bood ke sareyn cheghad bozorg shode,ya inke sabalan cheghad khoshgele ya inke nahar chi khordam, oon moghe zang zadambe sina. Khosh bakhtane fekram mashghool nashod.havasam part bood.az in mozoo lezat mibordam.
midoonestam hamoon rooz gharare nazanin biad rasht.ba in hal ke mikhastam az sina,az to, az internet farar konam, vali nazanin gonde tar bood[va hast!].az nazanin farar kardam.oon moghe ham riazi mikhoondam.vase eshgham.na vase Olympiad.oomadam Tehran.ba babam.sina goft mikham shimi benevisam.goftam dares dige mishe ye joori barkhord kard ke havasam part bemoone.are. raftam khoonashoon.fahmidam sanaz rafte Bandar.bazam havasam part bood.yani too in maye ha ke==èDIVERT.khob to ba sina oomadi khoonamoon estakhr.kheyli hal kardam.bad az modat ha lohrasP ro mididam.hamooni ke doosesh dashtam.hamoon lohrasPi ke sale aval bahash miraftam park taleghani.hamooni kesale dovom vase jashnvare bahash madrese mipichoondim miraftim dastkeshe jarrahi mikharidim.are hamoon lohrasP bood.shak nadaram.dige az dokhtar harf nemizad.inam gozasht ta vaghti ke ba sina dahan be dahan shodi.bazam eshtebah kardi.yani taghsire sina bood ke bad bardasht koni.vali khob in to boodi ke bazam zood ghezavat kardi.dorost mese hamoon mogheyi ke zadi too paye bahram.midoonam alan mikhay behem begi ke kare dorosti kardi vali man ham baz migam zood ghezavat nakon.khob too sale 85 avail bar fekram mashghoole lohrasP shode bood.fekram mashghoole dokhtar shode bood.narahat boodam. Vali be hich vajh nemitoonestam havasamo part konam.doost nadashtam dobare too ye masiri bioftam ke besham mese to(ino chon emshab behem gofti estefade kardam.gofti taze dari mishi mese man!) vali oftadam.
Inja bood ke bargashtam rasht.pishe nazanin.ye shab ta sobh pishesh boodam.behesh goftam shayad in akharin shabi bash eke injoori baghalet beshinam.to injoori deraz bekeshi.man nigat konam.akhe oon moghe taze fahmide bodam ke 7 tir bar migardan Vancouver(dorost neveshtam?) ba in hal ke vaasm kheyli sakht bood vali hame chizo vasash tozih dadam.oonam ghabool kard.nemidoonam age kese dige yi ham hamin harfa ro behesh mizad be hamin rahati ghabool mikard?dar har hal oon shab ham ba in hal ke nemikhastam tamoom she,tamoom shod.kheyli oon shabo doost daram.
Madrese ha ke shooroo shod sheyda shooroo kard.ba in hal ke oon moghe asan vasam mohem naboodvali belakhare majboor boodam energimo vasash sarf konam.are azam energy migereft.kelasaye test shooroo shod.sare baziashoon nemiraftam.dashtam riazi mikhoondam.na vase inke marhale dovom ghabool sham.na vase oon bahoone hayi ke miavordam.faghat vase inke fekram va havasam part bashe.sine kheyli talash kard ke man dars bekhoonam.shayad fekr mikard man azmam ro jazm kardam ke marhaleye dovom ghabool sham.shayad ham midoonest.akhe sina dar morede man kheyli bahooshe.khob door nashim.sanaz vasam az Bandar ye sadaf avorde bood.kheyli khoshgele.fek konam behet neshoon dadam.dobare fekram raft pishe sanaz.hamoon rooza bood ke oon sher ro avale ketab adabiatam khoonadam.shere ghashangi bood.va hast.zendegi zibast ey ziba pasand-zende andishan be zibayi resan-anchenan zibast an bibazgasht-kaz barayash mitavan az jan gozasht.kheyli shere ghashangie.in bar dige kheyli narahat shodam.hamoon chizi ke mikhastam nashe shode bood.az in narahat boodam.vagarna aslant narahat naboodam ke sanaz oono neveshte.be khodeshma goftam age ye mah ghabl oono mikhoondam narahat ke nemishodam hich,khoshhal ham mishodam.az in ham gozasht.raftim vase mosabeghate Iran-Open.oonja aghaye anoush ro didim.be ghole aghaye meybodi ye Concert e zende ham baishoon dashtim.sheyda shooroo kard.az hamoon shab.az oon shab ta hala har rooz baham tamas bargharar karde.nemitonam beroonamesh.nemidoonam chera.doosesh nadaram.azash badam miad.vali nemitoonam begam boro gomsho felen felan shode.oonam dare estefade mikone.shayadam sooe estefade mikone.na bebkhashid.dobare khodamo adam hesab kardam.na do jomleye akhir ro az zehnetoon pak konid.be har hal man nemikhastam fekram darham bashe.shod.nemikhastam dige ba maman-babam dava konam.hamin doshab ye davaye asasi baham kardim.
lohrasP kheyli vaght bood ke injoori bahat harf nazade boodam.akharinbaresh parsal bood.hamoon moghe ke nazanin taze oomade bood.kheyli injoor sohbata ro doost daram.kheyli kam shode.shayad chon kam shode bishtar doost daram.
BEFAHM!!!

Thursday, April 13, 2006

hang


Behtare hade aghal jeloye cheshmamoono nagirim..........

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

hey whats up?! long time no see!! right?! [ har chi minevisam az dahane 7 hastesh! ]

he/she aint comfortable with writin english, so i wrote this post in persian for him/her so that he/she could write it easier n shit...

*migama, bazi moghe haa asab khoordkone mogheyi ke bayad modam 2roogh begi... kheyli ham asab khoord kone... va bad tar az hame ham ine ke oon 2rooghaa ro begi, va bad oon 2nafar be joone ham ham biyoftan... dige ghooze baalaa ghooz mishe...

**tabestoon, raftam tamrin basket. mobilamo gozashtam roo silent. gozashtam tooye saakam.gozashtam rooye jaaygaah tamashaachiyaa.raftam too zamin.tamrin kardam.vase 2 saat tamrin kardam.khaste shodam.morabi soot zad.goft lebas bepooshin berin khoone.raftam too jaaygaah tamashaachiyaa.dare saakamo baaz kardam.mobilamo dar ovordam.14 ta miss call dashtam va 7 ta sms.
parirooz oomadam khoone. gooshimo gozashtam rooye silent. karamo kardam.shaam khordam. khabidam. sob boland shodam. gooshimo yadam raft check konam. raftam madrese. dars khoondam. madrese tamoom shod.oomadam khoone. gooshimo bardashtam.2 ta miss call, 1 msg.
jalebe ke adam mitoone che kaaraayi bokone... mage na?! taze be khatere chizi ke midoone ye rooz behesh vahshatnaak zarbe mizane... heh... migan ke adamaye ahmagho karishoon nemishe kard...
natije giri: oon moghe 14 ta miss call, va 7 ta sms dashtam, alan 2 miss call o 1 sms.
haha. man zoro baba.

***bad az chandin hafte mailamo check kardam... ye mail arefe... ye mail shari... ye mail zahra... ye mail nima... ye mail mamanam... ye alame mail ke toosh foshe az tarafe nesfe rapperaaye tehran... chand mail az CNN ke khabaraaye jadide eminem ro dade bood... chand taa mail ke toosh rajebe in tozih dade bood ke String Theory chand ghadam jelotar rafte va Quantom motezalzel tar shode... chandin taa mail ke posthaaye in blog tooshoon bood... va 2 ta virus...
heh... 2, yadete oon moghe haa chi migoftam?! shayad alan be hadaf residam...

****nakone vaghan inaa fekr mikonan ke basketeshoon behtar az man shode?! tanha chizi ke toosh saram, baskete... va hich vaght nemizaram berin jolo tar... khob?! chon oon moghe dige be hamin asooniaa nist peyda kardane inke tooye chi sar hastam... faghat kafiye angize ijad konin... va bad hamatoono leh mikonam too basket...

*****delam tang shode beshinam paaye keyboard o khodam benevisam vase khodam...

******hanoozam migam ke eshtebaah kardam ke tariki ro dar moghabele sarma entekhaab kardam...

*******inghad delam mikhad too bloge yaaaaaaaaas comment bezaram... inghad doost daram too bloge aida comment bezaram... inghad doost daram too inja baaz benevisam... ya hamoon beneBisam... [versione asab khoord kon...]

********bad az inke lebasam ghermez shod, selahe sardam, az chaghoo, tabdil be zanjire sorbi shod... be jaash alan dige hich jaaye lebasam ghermez nemishe...

*********vaghty man 2bare zende shodam o shooroo kardam be zendegi kardan o addi shodam, hameye bachehaaye ekip, ye pizza mehmoone man... aslan atish zadam be maalam, be nesfe bachehaaye farzanegan o aida o fifi o mamanam o doostaye mamanam o arefe o shari o mahdad o doostaaye mahdad o dadashash ham pizza midam!!!
heh... hekayate tarof kardane noon o halvaa be adame roozast... faghat barax...

**********faghat mitoonam begam delam tange... ziyad... bishtar az oon chizi ke mibini azizam... khyeli bishtar... dare say mikone... vali azizam... kheyli delam bishtar gerefte... azizam, khaste shodam... mikham zendegi konam... mikham besham khodam...
vali hanooz bayad sabr kard... ziyad... ziyaaaad...

***********shayad har dafe ke az asabaniyat mitereki, ye pele miri bala... shayadam ye pele miyay payin... faghat khoobish ine be in asooniaa kale malagh az hame pelehaa payin nemiyay

[ dar akhar begam Khoda 7 ro laanat kone ke dastam dard gereft !!!! ]

Thursday, April 06, 2006

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-baraye avalin bar tooye in blog mikham bedoone neveshteye ghabli benevisam...

-...to nafahmidi.albate az ghabl yaghin dashtanm ke nemifahmi vali in baes nemishod ke az talasham bekaham.jalebe na?baraye khodam ke kheyli jalebe.az hamoon aval ke bahat ashna shodam fahmidam kheyli az chizayike man mikham befahmio nemifahmi.majboor boodam ashna besham.na age mikhay in fekro bokoni ke dooset dashtam sakht dar eshtebahi.hich vaght nakhastam chizio be rokhet bekesham.yani mamoolan say mikonam chizio be rokhe kesi nakesham.dar morede to ke ghazie kamelan fargh mikard.aslan berokhet nemikeshidam.mikhastam khodet befahmi.alanam be rokhet nemikesham.yani faghat be in dalil ke nemikham be rokhet bekesham inja minevisam.goosh kon.har dafe ke mioomadam saram gij miraft.vali be rooye khodam nemiavordam.har dafe ke mioomadam dars dashtam.kheyli.bavar kon kheyli.vali mioomadam.dafeye yeki moonde be akhar ke asan bazar kar dashtam.oomadam.didamet.dobare az hamoon rah bargashtam.ah!khodaye man...!to ro khoda befahm.shak nadaram ke nemifahmi...

-MATLABE BALA PARDE GOSHAYI NADARAD!

- -mardoma mara doost nadarand.
-kodam mardom helya?tori shode?
-hame...na faghat sina...hame.
[some text deleted...]

-yadetoone oon rooz zire oon derakht gharar shod inja fosh bedim?yadetoone dadash soheyle man chia mikhast bege?man mikham az in be bad tebghe gharar inja fosh bedam nemoonash bande bala.

-ey baradare aziz choon to basist...dar jahan har kasi azize kasist
havase roozgar kharam kard...roozgarasto har damash havasist
ankaboote zamane ta che tanid...ke oghabi shekasteye magasist
be hesabe man o to ham berasand...ke be divane ma hesabrasit
har nafase eshgh mikoshad mara...hamchenin asheghim ta nafasist
karavan az ravesh nakhahad mand...baz rah ast o ghelghele jarasist
astin bar jahan barafshanam...gar be damane doost dastrasist
teshneye naghme haye oost jahan...bolbole ma agarche ddar ghafasist
saye(sale[saleh]) bast kon ke dardmando nazhand...chon to dar bande roozegar basist
(saye)

Saturday, April 01, 2006

maybe the biggest mistake that i made in my life was that i chose darkness instead of cold...
heh... ive decided this n i gotta live with it... arnt i right 3+1 ?! so live with it honey!!!