faghat narahat shodam, hamin. na asabam khord shod, na asabani shodam az dastet.

man daram javabeto minebisam Mahan. vali bezarid aval manzooramo az poastam benebisam. har ki har chizi be gheir az commente LohrasP bardasht karde, eshtebah karde. ESHTEBAH!
nemikhad be khodet barchasbe kheng boodano bezanio begi ke nemifahmi va khodeto tabra'e koni. khob ham mifahmike daram chi migam. mna bargashtam be koja? man koja boodam? az koja dari in harfo mizani chi didi ke migi bar gashtam be chand vaghte pisham? etefaghan bar ax; dige gharar nist bar gardam be jaie ke az azare sale pish ta ordibehesht emsal boodam bargardam; dige gharar nist be halo havaye tabestoone sale pish bargardam; dige gharar nist shekamamo ba sigar besozonam; dige gharar nist baazoo haam va sinamo ba tigh khat bendazam va beshinam be khoni ke dare azashon micheke negah konam va akharesh hamasho ba dastam jam konam va bokhoram; dige gharar nist ba khodanm rooye aiineye otagham chiz benebisam; dige gharar nist beram kooche zoghalia tu tajrish ba tarso larz aragh begiram ke shaba bokhoram; dige gharar nist shaba chanta ghorse aram bakhsho hasasiato kodo'in bokhoram ke begiram bekhabam. dige hich kodom az ina nist Mahan. pas bikhodi nago ke darambar migardam be jaii ke chand vaghte pish boodam.
man nemidoonam ke chi Mahan? chera bikhodi 3 noghte mizari? 3 noghte mizari ke chi? ke begi ke harfeto nemizani va kheili bozorgvari? ke masalan az kheili az chiza migzari? ke chi? chera harfeto nemizani? chera velesh konam? age mikhay velesh konam aslan chera harfeto mizani?
yani ch9i bargard GAAV? bargardam koja? bargardam be chi? bargardam be hamon jaii ke boodam? be hamon vaghti ke oon kara ro mikardam? sharmande; man dige be oon ja barnemigardam. age manzoooret ineke bargardam be samte to, bargardam be samte shoma haa, age manzooret ine, man ke jaii naratam. agaram manzooret gheir az inast bikhodi 3 noghte nazar. bia harf bezan. ham be khodam begoo, ham bia inja benebis. mesle poste webloget nakon ke faghat benebisi sina ham mano dige doost nadare ke badesham adamaii mesle idaw bian began "che ghadr to ghadr nashnasi" va vaghti ham ghazie ro barashon tarif mikoni, migan "khob chi begam?"
chi harfe khodame? chio nemiporsamo nemiporsam montazeram biay begi? chio nemidooni? chi shayad doroste? bejaie inke bikhodi 3 noghte bezari bia harfeto bezan. harf bezan. mesle Idin nakon ke chanta jomleye naamafhoom benebise va badesh baghieie melat began "aaaahh, bichare idin".
age oon rooz 1shanbe nayomadam khonatoon be khatre in bood ke man az ye hafte ghablesh ba ye nafar tu khone tanha boodam. hamoon adami ke nazasht man biam tavalodet. mikhay bedooni baraye chi? fagaht be khatere adrese khonatoon. are, faghat be khatre inke khonatoon shahrak bood. hamin! har chand age behsh migoftam ke mikham biam khonatoon va onam ejaze midad, fardash tu madrese vasam kelas gozashtan. mitooni beporsi; avali n 1shanbei ke aalipor umad sare kelasemono ta 12:30 kelase fogholade gozasht. fekr mikoni man delam nemikhast ke biam va pishetoon basham? hich kodometon oon rooz behem sms ham nazadid. are manam nazadam. vali shoma ha ham nazadid.
Mahan jan fekr konam harfaii ke bad bargashtanet az mosaferat zadio yadet rafte.
Mahan ta hala chand bar omadi pisham va behem gofti ke azam delkhori ya delet azam pore? 3 bar ta hala omadi va in hafa ro zadi. mage har baresh azat naporsidam ke "chera?"? behem javab dadi? ya soalamo bi javab gozasti?
Mahan, javabe harfaamo bede. javabe tak take soalamo.
Mahan age ina ro gharar bood ke hozoori behet begam, hich kodom az jomle hamo ba lahne asabani behet nemigoftam. chon asabani naboodam, alanam nistam. hamasho aroom beht migoftam va azat javab mikhastam. alanam azat javab mikham.

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age fekr mikonid ke donyaaye alane man, rabti be donyaaye shoma 5ta nadare dige, behem begid ke az weblog beram biroon. narahat ham nemisham. bekhatere inke hadaf az in weblog ye chize va oonam moheme va bayad donbal beshe (albate age hanooz yadetoon bashe).motmaen bashid hich etefaghe digei ham nemiofte va hamoniaii ke boodim baa ham, hamona ham khahim mond.